Blogging from the Seattle airport now, at a chi-chi little place with a cheese plate and a glass of wine, and that feels just about right right now. I went to visit mom early this morning, on my way out. It was just about the hardest thing ever to leave with that tube still down her throat. Her nose itched, and I was there to scratch it. But then I left, and who would help her with that? She couldn't talk, because of the tube down her throat, helping her to breathe. She tried spelling something to me, but either I was too lame to read the letters, or she was too drugged up to make normal letters for me, but I couldn't read them. We squeezed hands, and she cried a bit, and I cried more, and I felt like the biggest turd on earth for leaving her there like that. I'm tearing up here and now, thinking about it. It SUCKED.
The night shift ended at about the time I had to get to the airport, so the kind nurse who was caring for her overnight drove me to the airport (near her house)...I gotta say, folks in Alaska are nicer than folks in California, by about 10 1/2 miles. I was so so sad to leave, and it was nice to have a taste of kindness on my way out. I only cried twice on the airplane about leaving her like that. I'm going to blame it all on Alaska Airlines, because when I originally changed my flight from last Saturday, I wanted to fly home tomorrow, but they didn't have any flights available. So if they had, I could have stayed long enough...
TO SEE HER WITHOUT HER TUBE!!! I landed in Seattle, and called first thing, and her wonderful day nurse Deb told me that they took the tube out, that she was much more comfortable now, that she had talked some, and was now sleeping comfortably. YAY! Oh mom, you show them that they shouldn't scare the hell out of your kids, your mom, your family and friends, by telling us that you could be under for a MONTH, with undertones of "well, at first we thought if we did the surgery she might be under FOREVER..." which made us think, Oh, crap, was THIS a bad idea...But you showed them not to mess with Maya's Granny, because you KICK ASS, and you're awake and talking, and will be up and about sooner than anyone dares to hope.
Go, Mom, GO!
With much love, and a ton of relief, J
(Cross posted at Thinking About...)
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14 comments:
Hooray!!! That IS great news!
Thumbs up!!
great news - sending lots of positive energy to Granny and all the family.
a reader in MA
That's great news. Thanks for letting us know
Hooray! Hooray! Hooray!!!!!! You go, MG!!!!!
Wonderful!
I am only 90 minutes away from SEATAC, so if you are ever stuck there again, let me know!! I am so glad to hear that She is doing good. I imagine that it was terribly heard to leave her like that. I dont know if I could have.
You are a really good daughter and I understand just how it makes you feel to leave her. She has a lot of folks round the world thinking of her. I'm hoping that each day sees her make progress. God bless.
What wonderful news! Tell mG we are all happy that she has that tube out now. I think they tell you it could be a long time so that you'll be happier when it does come out sooner!
I had to go through this with my mom, too. It is really difficult to leave someone in the ICU.
I'm glad to hear she is doing better. All the best to you all....
Your concern and the wonderful optimistic news about your mom brought tears to my eyes. The candle is still lit, and my prayers are still being said. Now it is time to embrace your darling daughter and loving husband and get a good night sleep.
Thanks so much for keeping us posted, Julie. And I'm so glad to hear MG is going so much better!
Cheers to ya Granny! I'm drinkin' beer and eating Hershey's Kisses to celebrate!
Great, great news Julie....you made me misty-eyed just reading. (((((Happy Healing Hugs))))))))to your mom. ~Joy
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